I am in fact not blogging. I wrote this post this morning. I am writing it this morning. I am writing it right now. It will publish tonight, at my favorite minute of a twelve hour period.
It will publish…now.
I am going camping this weekend. While I think I need to get away, it’s more of a working weekend than a vacation. And, you know, I miss my wife when I’m away. I made all my veggie food ahead of time so as not to be a pain in the ass to the cooks. Though I think they might take it personally that I don’t eat their food all the time. All I can do is apologize and eat my various methods of burrito art.
We are having what might be the perfect weather for a nice camp-out, too. It was 95 degrees last year and humid. I am wearing jeans and flannels this weekend. And sleeping in a tiny tent by myself. No snoring old guys to keep me up. I might just go meditate in the woods. I finally read The Dharma Bums this spring. I should have read it a long time ago.
A friend of mine wrote to me two years ago, asking me about my Buddhist time. The way that I abandoned in favor of some image of myself as some kind of renegade philosopher. Plus, I took Max Scheler too seriously (search this blog for Scheler). Anyway, I wrote back to him in a hotel room in Kentucky (which I mailed near a roadside Burger King) to disregard and dismiss all my dismissals of Buddhism as me being a know-it-all asshole. That I think my unhappiness during my time as a PhD student might be traced back to when I abandoned Buddhism. Or, at least, it might have been less soul-crushing.
Yes, I called graduate school that. For me. If it didn’t work toward crushing your soul, congratulations. Seriously. You’re probably stronger than I am. You don’t need to prove it with hatemail. I know some people who definitely enjoyed graduate school more than I did. Some of them drank much much much more than I ever did, though. One didn’t drink at all, but I don’t know how happy [s]he was.
Geez, “Achilles’ Last Stand” is a great song.
I currently own three bike multi-tools and a new chain wallet.
I have too much stuff.
I repeat, I am camping. Not here.

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